- Benjamin Franklin (via ciggeret)
I hate you so much that i’m actually scared, for the first time in my life, about messing this up. Which is what I feel like i’m doing. Which makes me hate myself. Because it is seriously not normal to feel the way I feel. I hate you so much more than i’ve ever hated anything, and have never felt so much hate expand throughout the depths of my heart that it whispers, “Don’t ever, ever run.” And for the first time in my life, I just wanna listen to my heart, and hate you with all of it.
We become jaded, and then cynical. And we teach ourselves to not give a fuck. We discipline ourselves for caring, when we should not, so we become careless.
Before you read any further, I owe you the sincerest of apologies. I’m sorry for not sooner showing you how greatly I appreciate you as a mother and the way you brought me up. And I’m sorry for pushing you away and growing far apart during my rebellious years. I should not have said a handful of…